Work is just causing me so much stress I want to fall on my knees and cry. Not only did I get a promotion I don't think I deserved, I don't think I'm doing the job correctly. I love the opportunities I have and get now because of it, but I don't think I'm the right person for the job. I just don't see me as a good upper person, you know? I think I feel like I belonged at work, and now that I'm the 'boss' I feel the pressure. I know I can do it (and I have been) it's just I don't think I'm good at it. And getting my butt chewed out the other day embarrassing me in front my co-workers (the ones who I give orders to) I was yelled at in front of the customers. I feel lower on the ranks now.

I just don't see why everything seems like it's falling apart. I can't move forward. I have no one to go to, and I'm leaving no one behind. I have nothing to look forward too, and everything is just exploding in my face. Right now this medical stuff isn't helping either. I don't even think I really have this heart problem, but we'll figure that out in a few hours. I just want everything to be back to the way it was. :/

for good.