Today while driving back to the dorms I had my slow CD playing in my car. I was going 60 on a road where I usually go 70, I was just taking it slow. The songs that played, I didn't sing with them, I didn't dance to them, I just absorbed them. I think I should do it more often, because by doing things so fast and not thinking about anything else I miss so much. I've been living in Ohio for about 6 months, and I've never really noticed how pretty the city looks at night. The lights shine, the road lit up, I've never noticed it.

During this time, I wasn't blank, I just realized how much better things are when there really is a purpose for doing it. Just driving in my car, listening to music allowed me to reflect on who I am as a person. I realize I depend way too much on other people's input. I shouldn't care what others think, because honestly I am me. I always do things for other people and I never get a thank you, or a comment on it. They just deal with it. I originally thought I should't do it if I don't get a response, but why stop being a nice person?

How other people view me shouldn't allow me to change, it should allow me to reflect. Because someone doesn't say something to me, or they don't go out of their way for me doesn't mean I should change and stop what I'm doing. I should smile and brush it off, because it allows me to see that I am the better person.

From now on, I'm leaving the fast lane.