SHINee ♥

ONEW ★ TAEMIN ★ JONGHYUN ★ MINHO ★ KEY

I've been holding off writing this hoping these thoughts would go away, but they haven't. I feel like I screwed my life over. I feel like moving to Ohio was the worst thing I could do. If it wasn't for Sarah and Amanda I don't know how I would be surviving. The only reason it hurts so much, is becauase I've feel like I've lost my best friend.

We made all these stupid promises during high school, and none of them really worked. It really hurts me to think of back home just because my best friend was there. I feel like I'm not part of her life anymore. I'm starting to loose my home and my best friend.

I'm leaning more and more on my amazing 姐姐 Sarah. I love her do death, and it makes my day when we go to Caribou and be dorks. I love that she's filled this empty space that i have. I feel like maybe, afterall, I'm not that alone, I'm just alone when we're not together.

I don't know what happened but my best friend is gone. Not here. I can't feel her anywhere. I feel like I lost my angle. I lost the one person who I could talk to about anything. I feel like the goodbye we said was an actual goodbye, a relationship goodbye. Maybe it was us leaving because we don't actually need each other...which would be complete bs because I need you. I always will.

But right now, and for a while, I haven't felt you, at all.

샤이니 ★ SHINee

xiao tian has a wish; don't you?
☀ 365 Reasons To Smile
☀ The chance to meet Chord
☀ See Super Junior Live again
☀ To have a FERRIS WHEEL TOUR with my dear X0
☀ Amazing Knowledge of Chinese, Taiwanese, Korean, and Japanese
☀ I've eaten 81 airplanes.
☀ I've wished on 56 ramen bowls.