SHINee ♥

ONEW ★ TAEMIN ★ JONGHYUN ★ MINHO ★ KEY

I just got done writing another Kpop secret and now I'm in serious debate...

I know they way my heart feels for him is right... Like everything about him makes me feel the greatest I've ever felt. I know my feelings are true. But it's always nagging at me.

I'm this overweight, not that pretty, fangirl. It's the total truth. I don't see why I have a right to think he's right for me. Afterall it's all a day dream right? I think the concert opened my eyes. He never looked at me once. For all he knows I was just a screaming fangirl....and I am....so that's all I'm ever going to be.

I can't help but to think Tablo didn't write Fan for my support. It was a warning as blunt as possible. It was a 'watch out'. And I just ignored it and now look at me. I'm heartbroke over a man who doesn't even know I have a pulse. It's depressing, and it's starting to get the best of me.


Do I give up on my dream now that I've been woken up by reality?

or

Do I keep dreaming because it feels right? Because no matter what I or think my heart doesn't change at all. The worst part is telling myself it's a lie; becuase that just hurts me even more....

I honestly don't know what to do. I'm sitting here listening to slow Super Junior songs telling myself he'll pount on my door and kiss me telling me to stop thinking negitively...see...dreaming fangirl.

none of this true.

샤이니 ★ SHINee

xiao tian has a wish; don't you?
☀ 365 Reasons To Smile
☀ The chance to meet Chord
☀ See Super Junior Live again
☀ To have a FERRIS WHEEL TOUR with my dear X0
☀ Amazing Knowledge of Chinese, Taiwanese, Korean, and Japanese
☀ I've eaten 81 airplanes.
☀ I've wished on 56 ramen bowls.