SHINee ♥

ONEW ★ TAEMIN ★ JONGHYUN ★ MINHO ★ KEY

I just need to say: Thank you, and I'm sorry. It's not that all of those apologizes were fake, they were true, it's how I feel. I do feel sorry for all of this. It's not like I enjoy causing drama between us all, I hate it. I just get down on myself that I'm the one attacking people because I can't hide my emotions, they tend to get too raw.

I'm not yelling at you for leaving the locker the other morning. I didn't expect you to stay, I didn't want you to because I didn't want to explain myself. I never do. Because when I explain myself I feel that things get worse. I love you guys, I really do, I just don't want to hurt any of you.

I understand you guys have lives too. I know you do. We are all people with different lives and different futures, and yet we are all one as a group. I'm just so concerned that my plans, alone, aren't going to work, so then I fret about everybody else's problems because I know they can do better. I'm sorry it seems as if I'm ignoring you guys all the time or crunching down on you, but it's exactly opposite of how I feel. I know we all want to see each other and plan things, but your right, I do have a tight schedule so yeah, maybe I do know more. I just hate myself for having such a tight one because I feel like I loose out on certain things.

I don't mean to take things so seriously either. It's just when I hear certain comments it really hurts. I'm not trying to cause drama it's just that, so much happened at once that I froze, got scared and ran. It's what I usually do. I'm sorry it causes problems like these but I don't think I know any other way, really and truly sorry. I love you guys.


Thank you for my good wishes for Ohio. I hope everything is well. I hope you enjoy your week and school, and mega Jia You! For the musical. I know Hampton kinda glared at me when I told him I'd be gone for a week (actually most teachers did x3). But I'm going to go, clear my mind, rant to my dad, and see my Ohio BFF.

See you in a week! ♥

샤이니 ★ SHINee

xiao tian has a wish; don't you?
☀ 365 Reasons To Smile
☀ The chance to meet Chord
☀ See Super Junior Live again
☀ To have a FERRIS WHEEL TOUR with my dear X0
☀ Amazing Knowledge of Chinese, Taiwanese, Korean, and Japanese
☀ I've eaten 81 airplanes.
☀ I've wished on 56 ramen bowls.