is just to love and be loved in return

I've been thinking a lot about James lately. I think it's because whenever I sit down to do homework or go on the computer I can see him now. I think I should put it away.
This is my favoirte scene from the entire movie.

When I was with James we'd always watch this movie. It's why it means so much to me. But everytime "Come What May" would come on we'd sing it together. And when "Your Song" came on, oh god, he could fake sing that so well. Of course James couldn't sing, but it was so worth it all. I'd lay on his chest, he'd softly exhale and softly "I will love you until my dying day". And I'd always say "I'll love you until the end of time". Whenever I watch this movie, I only cry because I remember James so well. Well he is gone...So that means he doesn't love me. And I'm here until the end of time loving him. I just really miss him. I guess that's what I'm trying to say. This story. This story of the Moulin Rouge. Is the story he told me to tell people. It's the one everybody knows. This is my romance story. It is what happened. I want to sing to him: "Come back to me, and forgive everything."
or more importantly.
I wish he'd come back and say that to me.
I just wish I would stop thinking about him so much.
It was my fairy tale.
It was my romance story.
It is how I feel.
I'm sorry, but I miss James right now, more than anything.