I never know how to start blogs, I just sit here like "ihavetowriteonelikeomg" and I never do. But whatever.
I have three days until I go to Ohio. I'm totally excited and I haven't even began to pack. I'm debating on whether or not bringing a fan, but I'm guessing she has a fan I can use. My dad is still totally skepitcal on me going. He trusts Sarah and her parents, but he's just nervous. I mean what parent wouldn't be? I'm his only child and he's sending me off for a week to someone's house who I met over the internet. Sarah and I are totally lazy. We were supposed to talk on the phone before I got there, but we never have. >> I think it's because of the time difference and whenever I work late I eat late. I just think eating on webcame and eating while talking on the phone is so disturbing. But apperentally we're going to do a bunch of things. I'm totally ready to meet her face to face, we have so much in common, but at the same time, we're really different.
We're planning on going to Amish Country, which I can't wait for. I'm thinking it's going to remind me of home a little too much, but I'll enjoy it. There are things Sarah and I just have to do. Like a full fangirling day. She has to help me learn NEWS better. I always get them confused. I get a lot of Japanese mixed up. Omg Japan is so forgein to me now after I've spent so much time in Taiwan, China and Korea. I totally want to see the huge NEWS concert that she has on DVD. I just love watching live performances, because you get a feel for how the band is. I'm hoping to bring my Super Show (if I can trust myself with it) and Attack On The Pin Up Boys. I think after you get to know the SJ guys, you get AOTPUB way better. She better enjoy it []< (that's my new fave screaming face btw). We're also planning to watch Sailor Moon live action which will rock~ and Mulan is still a def. MUSTWATCH. Gosh. I cannot wait. I'm just nervous about meeting her friends. But who wouldn't be.
I've been too lazy. I've been working slowly on translations. I swear some artists just want you to suffer by being totally hard and complicated. I gave up on doing some of Chord's old songs that I have, I just get totally lost. And JJ Lin is like OoO wut? So it's taking forever. I've been findng myself listening to more and more JJ Lin, am not sure why, but I really don't mind it. He has such an angelic voice and his music is really good. It's insane to think his Mando. is his 3rd language. x3
I get to take a break from Walmart finally. But only because of Ohio. It'll be nice to get out. I've been working really hard lately, and I've been trying to prove that even though they are cutting people right now, it shouldn't be me. I may be under 18 still, and have a few months (okay like half a year) until I turn 18, but I work too hard to be let go of. Everything just might be getting way more complicated. But for right now, I need this job, so bad.
I haven't even began to think of school. I still have all my school shopping to do. All I know is that my senior year sucks. I wanted to be the senior on stage with my collar flipped for Choir. I wanted to be part of that, but as of right now. I really can't. In second semester my two main classes and Choir clashed. Mr. Hampton seems really picky about who can do what, so I'm pushed out of choir. I won't get to do any of those things I've been waiting to do. I honestly think that if I'm not going to be in choir, I'm not going to try out for the musical. As hard as this all seems, I'll be able to work more, so I'll be able to get more money to save up for OSU (if I get accpeted). Things are just getting way more confusing, and I'm not liking it at all. (my heart just got really heavy, and I got a pain in my stomach just writing about it).
I thought I was getting better at this whole depression stuff, but apperentally I'm not. Lately when I'd talk with X0 it's all small talk. We really don't have anything holding us together besides KO3, Chord, and Cakes. Summer is almost over and we haven't even played badminton once. Maybe we should get together on Monday and play Badminton, and watch KO3. Kibum, Yesung, and Jiro's birthday is coming up. Basically the week after Ohio it'll be their turn. I'm not making Kibum a cake, and Yesung and Jiro diserve amazing cakes. We've made some pretty amazing ones (Chords, and Georges) and I think they diserve to have amazing ones as well (not like Wes' cupcakes). I keep on thinking about Henry's birthday. It's not for a few months but I want his cake to be OoO amazing. I'm thinkin of making it look like a giant piece of candy >> it just fits him way to well. Besides the cake thing X0 is pwning me at everything. I'm the one who took Chinese class, and she still knows more than I do. She also sticks to projects, and I don't. She does so much for me, and all I really do for her and XK is make their life a constant worry. I freak them out too often with my mood swings, but then again, I've always been like that.
I'm getting a new phone on Monday. I really can't wait. My curren phone has been acting up, and Alltel pretty much said I need a new phone. Now that my dad's contract is up on his phone I can get a new one (since he used my contract to get a new one). I orginally wanted the Samsung Dleve, but everyone who has it says it's a bad phone. That the touch screen gets annoying and super complicated. I then wanted the Motorola Evoke, but stupid Alltel doesn't support that kind of phone on our plan. So my third choice and XK's first I'm getting the Motorola Hint. I don't mind it, it's a cute phone and all, but it's not exactly what I was looking for. I just know I need a new cell phone.
XK's family came down for family pics. I felt weird taking the pictures though. I met my husband. Well it was more of a "uh, hi". I really didn't get to know the rest of her family. The twins left today. So good riddance to them. They were getting way to annoying, and they never thanked anyone for anything. They lied all the time and threw tempertantrums when they didn't get something that they wanted. (now that I think about it, it sounds like a lot of female leads in asian dramas). But now it's just down to the 5 of us again.
I've been trying to stay busy though. I finally got a settled YouTube account and I'm currently putting up the videos I wanted to, and transfering favorites and playlists. I'm almost done with "Peony In Love". It's such a good book, and I want to do some research on 'The Peony Pavoline' it sounds so good. I'm also trying my best to work on my Chinese. I'm finishing the rest of my level one books, and doing more on "My Chinese Coach", whatever gets the job done. I guess after Ohio I'll have more time to relax.
I guess I'll finish my long "what is should do what i've done" blog. I don't work until next wednesday, but Ohio is in 3 days. I prob won't update until then. XD whatever.
Xiao Ling