i'm getting in a habit about forgetting to capitalize my words
eh
once i get back in the blog writing mood i'll start i don't have a problem with it now

xiao ling
do not worry about me
i am doing fine
i hope you enjoy your trip!
vomiting is a way of self harm for me
there is no damage or anything
just the raw pain in your stomach, the acid in your mouth
actually feels good to me
i like it, no scars, something you can do anywhere
i'm sorry that disgusts you but it's true
i also know my limit
i know how many tylenol i can take
and i know when to throw it up
i'll be fine
one by epik high has a totally different meaning to me
it's telling me time is ticking away
and soon i'll be so covered in memories that i can't see what's going on
that i have to change out of my old ways
otherwise i won't be here to do all the things i want to do
don't worry
i'll be here for you until your old dying of asian overload and your married to arron ya yan lun and you two are in a nursing home together
i'll be there for that i swear
i promise you
i'll be fine

on the other side of things for people who aren't xiao ling
i have become so much more happier this week
rats has assured that he'd never leave
and he'd always be there for me
yay for having a homo-never-leaving friend 8DDD
i haven't talked to luka in a while but that's okay
we usually don't talk for several weeks
then we'll be all "OMG" and talk

and on the tip top of my amazing week
charlotte
omgsh this person is amaaaazing
we always joke around (lol but we never joke)
my huzban (:
everything seems better
i'm okay with who i am
and i now i have healthier things to achieve what i want
there is never a time i talk to her that i never smile like wow
it feels good that when i'm so down in dls that someone will be 'um get on aim i'm worried'
i feel like a gap has been filled like seriously
ug
i could write a whole blog about charlotte
but i won't
it'll just drag on
anyway~

jia you ai tian!


iseul;
ai tian
amorette