I finally figured out how to say it.
I mean really.

wo yi wie zhe zhen de.

我意味着真的。

So know I can totally be all Chinese (:

It seems I have left Fahrenheit.

No joke.

It kinda hurts inside.

They just don't interest me as much as they used to.

But good ol' George, and Chord have me wrapped around the finger.

Even Danson~

Just not Fei Lun Hai.

):

I guess that's my fault

But I'll start listening to you, and even click on the links you give me.

That way when your ranting I can be all "OMG TTLY"

and even if I have lost interest in them, it doesn't mean they don't make me laugh.
I love their music, I always will~

Just them as a whole things have faded.

That better not be what's going to happen to us~

I can't wait until Danson's new album come out.

I'll be more fangirl with you then.

Until then I'll do my best and stick through it.
You do it for me, so why not return the favor?

I seem to be thinking a lot about how I want things to work out in 2009.

It's a perfect time for a new start.

Get better money management skills
(aka not waisting all your money on useless SUJU stuff, that your dad makes you tell him everything you're getting ((lol sorry flh's album isn't a Christmas gift anymore, my dad wants the money D8 so rude~)) )

I do say I have New York to still pay for, my iPod, my Camera

and sometime during the summer a laptop.

And New York is creeping up quickly.

If I don't get the money I won't be able to go.

But don't worry.

I'll get it (:

I juts need the Boys Out On Town Photobook + Calendar and I'm done on YesAsia until after march.

I've made that promise with myself.

Anyway,~

As I was saying.
I think if in 2009, i can gain a better self confidence, and a new look on life without my old life holding me back,

I'll be better off.

Like when I sleep on my couch (3 more weeks!) I don't have nightmares anymore.
I've stopped thinking about Eddy, what happened, happened. He's now paying for it

And in no way

was James's

Rye's

Ryan's

or
Eddy's death

have anything to do with me.
I was a victim, no matter how much Eddy's dad wants to tell me otherwise

And hey.

Better self-confidence means I could look at new love interests (not counting my current D8)

Someone will love me as much as I thought James did.

I just have to find the one~ ya know?

Until then I'll slowly start changing until 2009 comes~

I'll use Jan. 1st to look back on my year and see what I could have/should have/would have done.

Just like Sungmin!

Oh! Right!

Happy Late birthday Mista Xiah Junsu!~