I honestly could not wait for this day. It is now January 1st 2009. I would like to start off the new year by looking back at my past, and seeing what I could improve on. Also by wishing my wonderful
Sungmin-Oppa a great birthday! You will get your cake tomorrow!
First off 2008 was a long hard year. It started out okay after recovering fully from James's suicide. I finally got the courage up. Also, I had a new friend added to my list. Elizabeth. The year before we had gone to Chicago together, and as usual we ended up hanging out together. Back then we were just normal old C-Cake and E-Bread. The Gangsta's of our town. In February we had gym class together, and we found a new interest. Fahrenheit had entered our lives. From then on we were plunged in a world of a language we tempted to understand, and talked about everyday trying to see whose knowledge was greater. March came quickly, and I was still friends with Tiffany, her birthday was fun, but then she kinda forgot mine. A lot of people did. I ended up spending it in Willmar with Heather and Chelsea. Four days later I got my drivers license on a beautiful day, the next day it was terrible driving conditions but I still drove Katreina back from the Chinese restaurant. Eliz and I had our many smiles thinking of what Fahrenheit would do when we got stuck in the ditch. On March 14 (Ginelle's birthday) Rye committed suicide. Once again my world paused.
It was a longer pause. I had been talking to Rye and his father for a long time before it happened. Rye and I had grew a lot more close, and my feelings for him had restarted. But after it had happened I shut off and turned everyone away. I didn't want them I wanted Rye back. Ryan comforted me and it was a nice feeling to have my old life back. I went to Alec. frequently to hang out with Ryan and Eddy. I then got a letter saying how Rye wished he could've been better for me and told me he wished he could marry me. Rye, R.I.P.
April came along. I was depressed often but I was hanging out more with Elizabeth than I ever had. By now we laughed for BADminton, and often said "aiyo" and "aiya", and using the little bit of Chinese we knew. Fahrenheit was my world. Watching drama's, getting into them more and more, finding new artists. Danson Tang and Chord had entered my life. For Chord's 21th (lol 21th) birthday we made him a cake. A fail cake, but a cake none-the-less. One simple day in April I stumbled upon Super Junior-M. Boy-oh-boy was I dummy. But I did meet them in April.
My school year was uneventful, and I gave up with everything I did. I had no effort to make a scrapbook for our school musical 'Beauty and the Beast' like I wanted to. But it's not like anyone cared (it was jut going to be me sitting around taking pictures while talking to all of my friends who made it in). The school year finished quickly with only me lettering in choir.
The whole summer I worked at Wal-Mart. But I did have an amazing trip to the Zoo, and many trips to Willmar. In August Ryan had died in a drunk driving accident. Due do a long story that no one really cares about and only one person needs to know about, I became officially addicted to Elizabeth. My Xiao Ling~
The school year started off simple. I was now a Junior obsessed completely with Super Junior and taking Chinese. Other than that my year flew quickly. My grades were steady, and I had better concentration. Often I find myself in small uppers and downers, but it has been okay. The only bump was finding out that a close friend of mine had a mother dying of cancer. It was hard at first but now that I've got myself under control I hope I can be there for her. I want to show her she won't be alone when it does happen. Not that I want it to happen. I'm just going to miss having her around the house for a while. I hope the summer comes quickly so I can have her back here.
I hope 2009 brings more positives. I do have a few 'resolutions' but mostly things I want to change to make myself better.
1- Try to stay positive. When you get depressed think of the upsides, and listen to 'one' ONCE no more. It'll pull you out, then change the song and relax.
2- Keep your money. Don't spend it more than you have to. 50 dollars every paycheck to Grandma's for New York. And maybe occasional into my savings. I need to get a camera yet for New York, and a Laptop for the summer. Keep saving.
3- ONLY. I REPEAT ONLY get these following items on YesAsia. NO MORE AND NO LESS (this only applies until AFTER New York):
Fahrenheits 3rd Album
Super Junior's 3JIB
Super Junior's Super Show (ifitevergetsrestocked)
Super Junior-M's new album (ifandwhenitcomesout)
Danson Tang's 2nd Album
Chord's album (ifandwhenitcomesout)
4- TO TRY DRIED SQUID AND CHOCOPIES.
5- Keep working hard on Chinese. Stay on top of your side Japanese studies, and start your Korean.
6- Keep grades up. You'll be a senior in 6 months
That's all. Small and simple. Most things for my own benefit too. I really can't wait to see how 2009 works. I hope nothing negative. And I'm hoping for amazing adventures!
Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUNGMIN~ And on a side note. I have enjoyed the first 2 episodes of X-Family. I hope XL has watched some. At least hers loaded faster than mine did. Boy-oh-Boy do I love that show!
Xiao Ling