I had to take off the day today. There aren't enough words to explain how I've been feeling lately. A lot has been on my mind, I guess that's one of my problems, I think too much.
I feel revealed, I really do, I have the chance to finally say what I want without caring about others.
I think I need more time to myself. I'm always worrying about what other people, want or what other people think. I need to be myself, without thinking about it. I need to realize that no matter how hard I try, not everyone is going to be happy all the time. I can't make everyone happy, some of them have help themselves. Like you.
Yes You. You, the one writing this. Open your eyes. Not everyone is going to make you feel like you used to you, you have to help yourself. Stop spending time on everyone else. Sit down, write some blogs, write some of your stories, read a good book.
Watch a drama. Do things that you make you happy. You don't need people always comforting you. You're stronger than that. You don't have to be someone who changes for each one of your friends. They love you for a reason, believe them.
School on the other hand, keep doing what your doing. You know what you want in life. Yeah nothing is changing but something will, sooner or later. Stay with it, you can't give up. You have dreams to achieve, don't let school hold you back.
Same with your job. Yeah your always working, but your paychecks are okay, and you're still getting time to relax for an hour or so. Just smile and work through it. You'll be fine.
Maybe it is me who needs to open their eyes. Everything will work out. I know it will. I need that old confidence I used to have. I miss it all. I'm tired of the everyday routine, change it. Start talking to people you haven't talked in a long time. Break out of your shell. Be okay with yourself. See the positive things.
Ai Tian, you need this. Don't let your stress pile up so much you won't be able to get away from it.
Jai You, Ai Tian!
Iseul;
Ai Tian
P.S. Talk to Elizabeth more. You're going to break soon.
Xiao Ling