Like earlier stated, a lot has happened in the month that it's taken me to update. My stress level has shot way up, and it's slowly decreasing back to a level where I can handle it. I have gained a closer relationship with Ginelle. It's amazing. I now have another person to help me out during this hard time after Dave's death (may is soul rest in peace), but I have another person to help. I like to think of all of the negative things that have happened to me, is to help me become stronger for my friends. That way we all are a strong unit. Does that even make any sense? Jackie is a step closer to being part of our family. I don't know whether or not this is a good or a bad thing. I regret feeling happy for welcoming her into her family while her mother is slowly dying. I hope her mom can fight this, even if the doctors have told her there is no hope. We all must stay strong. She'll be living in the spare room next to mine (there goes my plan of kidnapping my
Asians giving them a nice place to stay huh?) My dad is being too kind I think, but at least it makes her happy. Welcome to the family Jackie!
Jai You!
School has become a bit more complicated. I have a very slim chance in taking the languages I need for my major. I'm working with the school, slowly to see if I can to
PSEO next year for most of my classes. And maybe I'll fall in to that dumb Rosetta Stone program. I need to start my other Asian languages. I guess my standards are high for wanting to be fluent in Chinese and Korean. But I still want to know Japanese and Thai. Even if I'll
never need them it's good for small subbing projects (if I
ever get to that stage).
I also find myself more annoyed these days. Little things like slow computer, bad music, or even a sight of some people angers me. I think it's just my stress level. Maybe it'll change, or maybe it'll get worse. I'm not one to say.
Halloween has come and gone! My
Halloween was amazing. I spent it with Chelsea who I had missed so much. I still miss her, but now since I know how to get there, I'll be seeing much more of her, no joke. We ended up walking around in creeper old guy masks trick-or-treating. We did carve a pumpkin, but it was that good of one, it made us giggle though. I also got to eat at this amazing Chinese restaurant. I got to try the infamous
Lychee. I do have to say, I think Henry has an amazing taste for fruits. I ended up getting a small cup my second time there with Ginelle. Next time they hopefully have a small can. I love that stuff.
Work is going okay I guess. I got switched to Soft-Lines (Clothing + Infants) at
Wal-Mart, not exactly what I was wanting. I actually enjoy being a cashier. Gosh, that makes me a
Wal-Mart nerd. I don't mind it. I get good hours on Sunday's, and I continue to get Wednesdays, and Saturday's off. With a nice number of hours during the week. 4:30-9. Four and half hours isn't so bad this gives me more opportunities to relax. But with my short hours comes, Elizabeth's new job. With both of us having a job we don't get to see too much of each other.
Hopefully some weekends we can sit around watching cartoon movies smiling and laughing. Otherwise I'll slowly start to crack. It seems when I don't talk to her for a good day, I slowly start thinking negatively. That just proves I'm weak.
Maybe it's not the fact that I'm weak. Maybe it's the fact I want someone to lean on. Someone who I can trust enough to cry to. We all need some support like that right? I just hope in the process of everything changing, I don't lose anymore friends. I can't afford that. I just can't.
Oh and update on happiness level.
Improved, and In Love (:
My blogs are boring~
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With Love,
Jai You Ai Tian~
Iseul
Ai Tian
Xiao Ling