Wednesday, October 8, 2008
forgotten passwords @ 5:10:00 PM
funny thing, i set up my entire blog, and wham
i forget the password
i am not good with these things
off to blog~
I no longer care what they think
I don't want to know what they think
I want to be alone
maybe I still don't understand myself (or other people)
but I do know I think I get it.
I prefer the sadder things in life for a reason
people's true colors show when they are down,
see how weak or strong they are when something isn't the best of times
raw emotion is so hard to find in this world of plastic smiles
embrace what people show
whether it be smiles, or tears, take it all in and love them
I don't need make-up to make me seem attractive
I don't need to wear nice clothes to put a money value on me
I don't need someone to tell me how beautiful I am
It's all vain, everything we do.
I'd rather wake up brush my hair and put it in a sloppy ponytail
and not worry about my acne
I'd rather slip on some ripped up jeans and a hoddie
than worry about what other people think
I'd like to view my small double chin and my pudge as beautiful but I can't
Just because it's not beautiful to be health at 170 rather than unhealthy at 100
where is the logic in that?
it shouldn't matter who I like
it's not about what you look like
it's what you say
it's what you do
it's what makes you, you
enjoy life without second guessing yourself
you'll enjoy it more;
cry when you need to, smile when you need to, show emotion
I'm Iseul, I'm 17, I'm in love with Luka, I love Asian culture,
I have an eating disorder, I'm overweight I've been raped and I'm all okay with it
Accept me for me, me nothing else
-Isuel, Ai Tian~
샤이니 ★ SHINee
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xiao tian has a wish; don't you?
☀ 365 Reasons To Smile
☀ The chance to meet Chord
☀ See Super Junior Live again
☀ To have a FERRIS WHEEL TOUR with my dear X0
☀ Amazing Knowledge of Chinese, Taiwanese, Korean, and Japanese
☀ I've eaten 81 airplanes.
☀ I've wished on 56 ramen bowls.
Xiao Ling